living and cooking

it has been an eventful summer.
i received shocking and devastating news,
tallied one more year,
worked an extremely unsatisfying position in childcare for the first time in my ten years of experience
and gained some perspective on how solitary i really am.

Some call it autonomy, others loneliness. I mathed it out and started seeing a pattern:
I don't drink as much
I don't drive as much
I don't go out of my way as much.
My energies are channeled into work and mental stability. This has made this summer very different.

Two of my friends got arrested, one tried to be committed, a whole bunch of them moved and gas prices made it hard for me to drive to brooklyn, eat cheese and pay my electric bills ("energy saver star" really...really?)

I'm going back to H this fall but I'm considering options/ daydreaming of trees.
I love cooking with mushrooms and I love how many cardinals I've been seeing.